this was one of the happiest moments of my life. got my voice back. my man back. and my groove back. amen. its been a great year.
This year has been a crazy roller coaster.
For a girl that totally breaked from her career, I definitely had my hands full. Mostly with myself. (TWSS).
I got myself into some sticky situations around the beginning of the year, but it all had a way of working out, and looking back it was all perfect.
I learned the art of forgiving is not about waiting for someone else to forgive you, but more about forgiving yourself. And let me tell you, that shit ain’t easy, but if you do the work, it will set you free.
I also realized what a blessing a voice is, and how lucky I am to have one. I am grateful for the gift I have been given, and for the ongoing opportunity to share it.
The gift of song, the gift of sharing, and the gift of expressing myself through music, is something I will never take for granted.
Back in Septemper, polyps on my vocal chords caused me to cancel tour and push back the recording of my record.
I ended up deciding to get surgery, which to some might seem horrifying, but all along it felt like the right decision for me.
In the beginning of November I underwent surgery, the polyps were removed. It seemed like a week of voice rest was hardly going to be enough time for my voice to heal, but it was. I’m good as new! And with that I am present to how grateful I am for my health.
I plan to be singing my ass off in 2011, with a new record and a tour to follow, I cannot wait to share these new songs with you!
The end of the year shaped up crazy amazing.
The rekindling of an old relationship flourished like we never parted. As our love and friendship grew like ivy, up and over and all around us, I knew this was it.
On December 23, Jason Mraz proposed to me at my favorite beach in Cardiff, CA.
Now sitting here on a balcony, high above the pacific, the waves lapping gently against mother natures skin, while music fills the air. I rest my head on my lovers shoulder. Im worn out from a 4 hour surf session in 77 degree water. I can hardly believe this is my life, but im not surprised, as I created it to be this way.
Life is a dream. It’s all for the creating. It’s in your hands. It’s up to you. Follow your heart. Be the mirror for your peers. And the let love fill up the silhouettes of your heart. The year is now, so what are you waiting for?
Tons of love and smooches at midnight.
Thank you for sharing your journey with me, and letting me share mine with you.
With hands held high, and love all around.
See you tomorrow, in 2011!
xo <3
TP
Since I awoke today, I was unable to get into thinking/moving gear. I was sluggish and slow. I was wondering, should I try resting? But I slept enough the night before!
I watched a movie. The Illusionist (2006).
11 hours after rising, I am finally awake. Ready to think and do.
It sometimes feels like I am perpetually waiting for my mind to allow me access.
Today, we let our housekeeper go. She was young and full of promise. She was vivid and lively, creative when happy - listless and moody when upset. It feels like we’ve turned family away.
It’s been awhile since I have felt that I was not comfortable with her around.
Today, started off well. I felt empowered to manage my own home. I felt the space was mine. A carry-over from working with my mum and needing my own space, perhaps.
But our housekeeper took up a lot of ‘space’. She was a person. In your face.
Not easy to trust because she could be a slick liar, but full of human qualities that made you want her as a friend. When she was in a good mood that is.
So intelligent that she covered her tracks well the first. Second time round… We refused to give her any benefit of doubt.
Feels like we snuffed out a candle. She was growing and learning with us. And now because we can’t trust her anymore, we sent her away. She was more than an employee. And that is why this hurts.
You see, when you send someone away because they have hurt you, there is no satisfaction, because you have to deal with yourself once they leave.
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Today was a purpose-driven passage of time. And then I watched a movie about understanding what tools one has to fight.
Some people are born knowing how and why they protect themselves and grow their dreams.
Some people find it way later.
Life starts then, I think.
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